So, he didn't get me a card.

Not even a single flower.

I have no friends to lean on.
I need someone who can be there for me.

Nobody has said anything to me about what they know is going on.
About what today is.

I have no support.
Nobody to discuss my feelings with.

Nobody who understands.

Nobody who's been through the same thing.

I just have baby clothes on hangers, a few stuffed animals sitting on a box, and a bouncer sitting in a box.

All these things that probably would have been in use by now. Unless I would have delivered after my estimated due date.

But I am here now.
September the 26th, 2009. & the baby has been gone for about 7 months.

We don't know if we got the jobs at the TV station yet, so we can't really afford to commemorate this day.

We did get breakfast from Bigfoot Bagels today. Garlic bagels. Te other half got lychee bubble tea and I got a Mocha Blast from Baskin & Robbins.
The cup says "Every Day Is A Happy Day!"
They can eat my ass.

We couldn't afford to go somewhere nice for dinner, so we got pepperoni pizza. It seems like a good fit because the only decent food experience I had while pregnant was with some pepperoni pizza that was like a day old. And cold. Right out of the fridge. I liked cold sandwiches to some extent, but HOLY SH!T. That pizza with some Coca-Cola with ice. NICE. Foodgasm. First time I'd really experienced that.

I think I need to cut this short and go be social with my husband. My emotions are really fluctuating and he just turned on some way emo music. Probably the very saddest Joy Division song. "Atmosphere"

It's pretty appropriate.
Here are the lyrics:
Walk in silence,
Don't walk away, in silence.
See the danger,
Always danger,
Endless talking,
Life rebuilding,
Don't walk away.
Walk in silence,
Don't turn away, in silence.
Your confusion,
My illusion,
Worn like a mask of self-hate,
Confronts and then dies.
Don't walk away.
People like you find it easy,
Naked to see,
Walking on air.
Hunting by the rivers,
Through the streets,
Every corner abandoned too soon,
Set down with due care.
Don't walk away in silence,
Don't walk away.